just like that

Talking to an old pal(?) made me realize that even if you try hard to maintain a camaraderie with a long lost friend, at times a bruised ego dosnt allow it. I think its practically very difficult for people to let bygones be bygones. Although you accept the present and intend to carve a different future the past always catches up and leaves you dumbfounded. And I think we should just let it be! There is no point in reveiving a friendship thats gone sour. Rejoice in the fact that are some beautiful moments and memories left but no friendship. There is a limit to every effort and the limit is even smaller when the effort is one sided. You should probably seek solace in the fact that you tried and it didnt work. Off late I seem to have developed an 'anti-midas touch', everything I seem to touch turns it to something of even inferior value. But I am not complaining. There is an antidote to every person and phase in life. That much I have realized!

Probably this post is just to reiterate the fact that you cannot let anyone ruin your sense of being. The following lines just came to my mind....

Ek baar waqt se,
lamha gira kahi
wahan dastaan mili,
lamhan kahi nahin.......

ho sake toh ismein zindagi bita lo, pal joh yeh jaanewala hain...................

In love...... with what i do

Almost everytime i crib about my deadly schedule and think I am doing nothing apart from work, comes a moment that makes me realize that I would have preferred it in no other way.

A module that should have been checked in ages (read 2 days) ago is still on my machine because the scripting guys are stuck with a problem of their own. As grep cannot do a pattern matching spanning multiple lines we probbaly have to go with sed/awk/gawk. Exactly 24 hours ago I knew nothing about them and just knew the theorotical functionality of grep. But now I have written a small shell script and have tried grep and awk already. Now we are to take a call on having awk(or whatever we choose) installed during our rpm installation as it is not preent by default on linux system, unlike grep.

Ok so my post is not about that technical issue, it is about the fact that I should not really be complaining about my over the top schedules which have stayed like that for many months now. The past 24 hours made me realize(once again) that i wouldnt want it any other way. I can simply occupy myself with anything......grep, awk, reflection, palak paner, custard pudding, masakali,........absolutely anything!!!! Being in this field has probably taught me to be occupied and happy at the same time. Does not mean I do not indulge in whining; but I am resilient faster ;)

Walking the talk

It’s really good to see people not just complaining but actually lending a helping hand and doing their bit for the upcoming elections.
In the image you can see Anu holding a banner and urging people to vote……Well done anu!!!!

I hope each one of you takes some time out and gather information about the candidates in your constituency and vote for the most promising one. Let religion, caste and party take a backseat. Its only the individual’s performance and credibility that should matter! So go ahead……and VOTE!!!!!!!

What a day!

As I walked into my cubicle, my manager said he wanted to talk something urgently. Realizing something was amiss I went to the conference room where he declared - "Prameela, you are moving to the Goa office for 4 months". I was shocked and too stunned to react. After 15 minutes of deliberations I decided things wouldn’t change unless I create a hue and cry and decided to talk to all the seniors against this abrupt decision. All of them seemed to be hell bent on moving me to Goa.

I wasn’t really against the idea but I did not like the way they were choosing things for me. I mean I should at least have been asked. But times are bad and I was obviously concerned that I couldn’t do anything if these folks were serious and adamant. Finally I got a call in the evening from the seniors and we decided to meet for the final discussions in the conf room. They explained me their point of view while I put forth my own. Deliberations and arguments flew thick & fast and within 10 minutes there was chaos. Soon my team (and few other folks) walked in and shouted "Happy April Fools' day Prameela"

Oh shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s all I said.

Now there is a video showing my not so nice reactions with people, my mails etc that are being forwarded and making me feel like a pucca IDIOT

Why the hell don’t I remember dates?????????????????